Alright, what else can I say. I feel so defeated each time it happens but yet, I still give in to it. I try to think "You should stop right now", or I'll try to remember how guilty and stupid I felt even last time but IT DOESN'T HELP. WHAT CAN I DO. WHAT? Shame? Okay fine I'll shame myself. Ugh I'm so sick of this shit. Sick doesn't even begin to describe it. I can't identify the triggers, and don't know how to stop it. Fuck's sake.

On a (slightly) brighter note, I met Daryl today. (I had to use slightly because.. well if I don't.. TDH will QQ. Less QQ more PIUPIU please.) He is really really nice, not my type at all though LOL. No new eye candy. Ah well. (Brenda is blind okay.)

Plan for tomorrow: wake up - go for a walk - stretch - shower - meet TDH - light lunch PLEASE, I'm begging myself - study - study - study - no snacking unless I'm hungry - study - study - study - study ass off - EITHER go home for dinner - nothing after dinner OR light dinner with TDH - study - study - study - sleep

Studying 12 topics in one day, go us. I love you babe.

Exam - salted egg yolk prawns, curry fishhead and mantou - met Daryl, SF4 - did some, um, stuff -napped - cooked some dinner - tomato soup, half a pita, fruit bowl, crackers, chocolate - walk later probably - talk to TDH - sleep

Intake: About 1700 cals.
Outtake: WALK. Even I'm feeling lazy now but I'm going to make myself go.

Lowest point ever. You told me I turned you on and all I could think of was "You're lying."