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Saturday, February 13, 2010

Wow okay, so I've been eating like crazy these few days, because the FOOD WAS TOO GOOD. Back in the days, I'd have probably loathed myself and think of what a fat ass I was. No more, no "disease" is stronger than I am. No way.

Tomorrow it's back to eating healthier! And less too, forgot about my resolutions to eat mindfully and slowly. As I promised TDH anyway, no more chips till Sentosa, and I'm not going to let something like this defeat me and make me break a promise to my man.

But about the food.. Valentino's is AWESOME. I LOVE THAT RESTAURANT I LOVE THAT RESTAURANT I LOVE THAT RESTAURANT I LOVE THAT RESTAURANT. Plus the chef's cute haha. No more fancy eating for a while, it's all about healthy. Besides, it didn't feel very comfortable going to sleep with a full stomach.

Speaking of sleep.. ugh I can't. Just tossing and turning in bed and just can't seem to get comfortable.

Now, I just need to remind myself because sometimes you just can't get a better perspective at a time where you need it most.

1) Exercise is not a chore. Think of it as time for yourself. For one hour a day, it's all about you. No worrying about studying, relatives, relationship problems, parents, etc. Just that that 1 hour to renew yourself, to shape yourself into a better person physically and mentally.

2) Can't stress this enough, EAT SLOWER. Honestly though, I eat like a guy, shovelling food in my mouth. Whe you eat slower, you know when you're actually satisfied and not eat till you're too full.

3) Order 1 less dish than you normally would. This works WONDERS for both TDH and I, because we always get waaaay too much food. Ordering less also equals cheaper bill.

I actually could not finish a salad and soup I ordered at Thai Express back when I was eating less. Hence. "Hence".

4) You don't have to finish the food on your plate, and before you go on about the starving children in Africa, yadda yadda yadda, wouldn't non-eaten food have a higher chance of ending up on their plate? Yes but that wouldn't happen too so stfu. This is really difficult for me because I tend to finish everything on my plate, hence (again with the hence) no. 3. "Hence".

5) No chips till Sentosa! What I wish to type out now is "I can do this, because I will not let something bad I let grow inside conquer me.", but I can't because.. it's difficult. I don't expect anyone to understand because I don't think you all have this problem, but yes, this will be terrifying. I need to lean on you more than ever babe, I know you'll be there for me =]

So I can't remember all of that all the time, but it's a start =] Time to go back to healthier eating habits, at least for a while.

Postscript: NIGHTMARE. I either can't sleep or have a nightmare while doing it. Dream I had to be civil to Y-K-W! Whoreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Alright that is all.

(10:08 PM) Dancing with all the stars aboveYYY